It's such a funny term to be referring it to myself like "Oh, I have been taken for granted" by so and so because I really hate that victimization mentality and I am very prideful so I'd rather not see myself that way. But, curiously...did I also allowed someone to step over my head and like randomly out of nowhere decide and treat me like an roach as time go on?
I do realize I always end up being that part when people think they have better opportunity to life rather than to hang out with someone with the likes of me. Simple, little goals, sincerely just living my daily life and focusing on the people around me. YEAH PEOPLE AROUND ME, in which some of them just decide that I SHOULD be something else or somewhere else. Which makes me doubt, why they even decide to share a friendship with me anyway. This thing, this friendship, every relationship and bond that I really really put my heart to cherish...seems almost like nothing to these people. 有就有，没有就没有咯...that's how they probably feel about it, when to me the bonds I have with people are the world to me.
Not MONEY, INTERNET ,nor the FUCKING PHONE, NOR THIS STUPID DAMNED JOB, NOR MY "STATUS" IN LIFE, but you my friends, who I cherish and love outside my main family. I still love my family despite being hurt and how I feel about them.
But you...
Do you even CHERISH my existence enough to want me around, or it doesn't even matter if I am valuable or not, here or not, alive or dead.
Mm....yeah....
That's what I thought.
I do realize I always end up being that part when people think they have better opportunity to life rather than to hang out with someone with the likes of me. Simple, little goals, sincerely just living my daily life and focusing on the people around me. YEAH PEOPLE AROUND ME, in which some of them just decide that I SHOULD be something else or somewhere else. Which makes me doubt, why they even decide to share a friendship with me anyway. This thing, this friendship, every relationship and bond that I really really put my heart to cherish...seems almost like nothing to these people. 有就有，没有就没有咯...that's how they probably feel about it, when to me the bonds I have with people are the world to me.
Not MONEY, INTERNET ,nor the FUCKING PHONE, NOR THIS STUPID DAMNED JOB, NOR MY "STATUS" IN LIFE, but you my friends, who I cherish and love outside my main family. I still love my family despite being hurt and how I feel about them.
But you...
Do you even CHERISH my existence enough to want me around, or it doesn't even matter if I am valuable or not, here or not, alive or dead.
Mm....yeah....
That's what I thought.
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