Dawn

As the memories of him drifts further and further, I have found myself able to breathe away as the darkness draws away from my mind.

That Monster, which i once saw so much and gave so much of...just fading into that emptiness through the words of others just relieves me. I am actually glad....glad that I was able to find a source, a reason, enabling me to despise him. Despise him for all his lies, despise him for trying to pull me back, despise him for all the broken promises he made.

As low as it might sound; through all I heard about him. I AM GLAD. Even though I might still be single, I am so glad to be doing so much better than him. I am glad that he couldn't have this side of me. Glad to be able to do so much with my life for the past year because I didn't have him with me.

I no longer feel tied down with guilt to be doing better, no longer felt "abandoned", nor that feeling of worthlessness whenever I was with him.

At last.

I could breathe...