Another raining day...

I'll have to spend my lil punishment tonight, not really looking forward to it. I deleted my last posts since i just find myself ridiculous and stupid as i am. I just hope the night passes soon and everything will end up alright and better.

Better? You promise?
Yes.

and that's how it will keep me going.

Everything will end up alright, trust him and i should trust myself as well. Eesh, this girl how to trust, always cannot make proper judgement, have anxiety problems and super super dense personality. Nyeh, nonetheless i should learn to grow with mac, grow more mature and loving to him instead of lashing out at him just because i am comfortable and i want to be comfortable. True enough he is comfy physically and mentally for me, a lot. I shouldn't take it all for granted and test his patience =< Well Mamac did too, but i guess do unto others what others would do unto you.

Better.

Everything will be better,
Sunshine after the rain right?

P.S: Oh yey my pants got drenched from the rain again. Feel like sneakily call him after 12am and say it's Tuesday already, but i bet that will only just piss him off more that i find effort to do little schemes through wording loopholes like that than anything else productive after we just quarreled thanks to the words we use, i better don't. =< I miss mac. I really hope everything will be alright soon.