'Forever'

I came across Leon's photos while cleaning up some stuff today. Those were some things i really treasured of him even till now. His radiant smile then and that warm affectionate embrace. Even though i really hope for...but it would be unfair for wanting him to wait for me now.

I really hurt him too much. I myself being hurt this little much doesn't even balance out the fact that he's hurt more than anyone else.

Though our differences, we'd always thought we could last forever.

How long did 'forever' last again...? 2 years?
The feelings, our emotions. I have it even till now. But...have he given up yet?

Maybe I'm just being a bastard to him by having myself in another guy's (whom i don't even trust 100% yet) embrace, that's probably what he feels as a punishment to him. But by him being upset, would be my worse guilt ever.

Will he read this?

I doubt so...

But...I will always have that feelings for him, always. Either if I'm in his arms or not, but yes, always.

But now...as i have said, i need to be away from him because of some unspeakable problems as well. But...I just hope, in the mean time, he would still smile at me with that same affection self i knew of him.