Another raining day...

I'll have to spend my lil punishment tonight, not really looking forward to it. I deleted my last posts since i just find myself ridiculous and stupid as i am. I just hope the night passes soon and everything will end up alright and better.

Better? You promise?
Yes.

and that's how it will keep me going.

Everything will end up alright, trust him and i should trust myself as well. Eesh, this girl how to trust, always cannot make proper judgement, have anxiety problems and super super dense personality. Nyeh, nonetheless i should learn to grow with mac, grow more mature and loving to him instead of lashing out at him just because i am comfortable and i want to be comfortable. True enough he is comfy physically and mentally for me, a lot. I shouldn't take it all for granted and test his patience =< Well Mamac did too, but i guess do unto others what others would do unto you.

Better.

Everything will be better,
Sunshine after the rain right?

P.S: Oh yey my pants got drenched from the rain again. Feel like sneakily call him after 12am and say it's Tuesday already, but i bet that will only just piss him off more that i find effort to do little schemes through wording loopholes like that than anything else productive after we just quarreled thanks to the words we use, i better don't. =< I miss mac. I really hope everything will be alright soon.

Muah~!

Maybe it's just today, it feels like May 1st again before i excitedly left my room here thinking about kissing you soon...

I miss you.

Leaning

I miss you so much, i fear about not having you near. Even if you don't spend time with me, at least be with me when i go to sleep. I need your support and be assured of it, it is not easy falling asleep without you, it is not possible at all.

I miss you baby, hate being upset when you're not here with me.

Help!

人气不好.
叫天天不灵,叫地地不应.

As we all know we all live in a competitive world where no one is allowed to be better than you else you would lose out.

Then think about it in another way, no one is good in everything. But when you need help? Seriously, Who would be there to help you?

In this world where others feel you cannot be equal or better than them?