Missing the sleeping him.

Just woke up outta bed though it is already 1pm+, feeling slightly confused and lonely as i cannot find him to hug to. Still not quite used to it after weeks have passed, i can only feel better if i know he is by my side. He is still sleeping though, so i don't wanna disturb him. He has been lacking of sleep this weekends dat i dun wanna him to be sleepy and get sick eventually. ARGHHH, but i miss him so much. >.<

These days thanks to work and what not, our sleep timing shifted drastically, thus often resulting us in sleeping at different periods of the day.

Mac woke up in the middle of the night suddenly knowing dat it's around time i would reach home from honey's celebration, without an alarm clock. I know, because i called him when i reached back, 2 times, and he never answered. It was a very sweet gesture though, so sweet dat i dunno wat to say, but to love him even more.

I'll be going out for dinner later too, should i call him up and squish him sleep time just for a few hours to chat in ur weekends with him before i go out? Or should i just let him sleep till it's enough for his body to woke up by himself, so he be comfy?

Thanks to me and the mac, Kach has been somewhat forced to sleep in another room with the mattress because both of us don't sleep in the night. we spend our nights chatting and playing, which had been making her sleep difficult because i am too noisy. I feel so bad ah, but i dunno wat else i can do. I really really miss my love so much, i really wanna spend all the time with him aside from working/his school time. (we have no choice about it) Most of time, i think we prolly lack of sleep badly, considering us always chatting till late night. Or something staying awake till morning. I always try to salvage my sleep, sleeping whenever few hours where mac is still in school knowing the time he be ol is around 9~10pm when i reach home around 6.30~7pm.

OKOK.....hmmm....*thinks* considering mac has not been answering me around 3am. So he should be alseep by then. Then then, how is near 2pm. *thinks* 4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12, 1, 2. He has been asleep for more than 10hrs already, should i call him??

*confused confused*

*stress*

*sigh*

*knock wall*

Slowly getting back into the pace of 'Life'

BLOG POST 101.

Back in SG, back to work, back into the shitty reality of what the society has already dictated as life.

Study else you'll be useless, Work else you'll be worthless.
Yeah, that's how shitty living is. But still i can't help thinking about wat the adults nag me about the whole weekend.

I have long gave up the thought about living, there's no point going around being judged by the number of certs and the points you have. There's no confirmation that one will have a high paying job and be looked upon when one is a graduate. And so what if you have all the money and fame there is, is it guaranteed that one will be living happy?

Sigh, at least i have something to look forward to everyday. Just any joke from him, LAME or not will lit my day up as if it had never been grey.

Sometimes i feel simple things in life affects me more than winning the lottery or having the chance to handle a big project. Mac told me dat before dat i overvalue many simple, common things, like how if someone give me food to eat or simply just bring me to have a walk around the super marker, it will make me super SUPER happy!!

I actually quite like this side of me. Appreciate and be appreciated, that's what one of my given name means. Suiting?

I remember, in the past 10 years or so, my birthday wish was always simply to wish that i can be happy when i could wish for toys or awesome grades at school. Now i realize, what i need and can do was actually really simple.

I don't need all the cash in the world to be happy, just a little love will do and a little more everyday! =)

That is what it means to live to me,
and the only thing that keeps me living.

Back in my OWN room!!

Came back home today after 1 and a half months with all my junk from everywhere so i can bring a lighter bag out the next time.

I brought back memories of me and mac together as well. As i unpack things, looking through every item and laughed about how we survived half a year together like this in my room is such an interesting feeling. Every little things we shared together just by this laptop and the things around me. The blanket i wish he's in with me every night instead of the bolster and my dolls i play with on the webcam, it brings back a lot of memories good and bad of us together struggling to love when we are a world apart.

There's now a few more editions into my room nao that tells me that our relationship is not as shallow as just stroking each other's ego on webcam, i hope it will have more though. I want to feel myself surrounded by him ALL THE TIME. LOL (shit i sound like such a stalker)

*sniffs mac's shirt again*

Oh pogi ko, i wish you were here with me nao as i was in your room just a week ago.

I can't believe a week has passed already, it's only been a short while though it felt like a century to me. DAMNED and i still have to wait till dec. How many centuries would dat be?!!

I just ate durian. HOHO. Though i have slight sorethroat for going out with Tenma to nomnom AWSOMES MANGO PUDDING <3 Thanks again Tenma for the good noms, so wanna nom it again. we should all have nom nom outing nya~

Father wasn't in any bad mood with me when he picked me up earlier, so i am still fine. I just came back to my room in case we have to talk anything more which will turn into a conflict. Mother is out nao playing majong out at her friend's place. i would expect her and her lil 'pet talk' later, sigh. Ah well, dunno how to deal with it so i think if my hair dry enough i shall nap until pogi comes home and onlines. (pray no blackout tonight) I really miss him so much and i would LOVE SO MUCH if nothing spoil my weekends with him.

Missing Ma Mac.

Mac is back in school nao, supposingly. I don't know wat happened though, but he hasn't been ol last night and he is uncontactable by phone until nao. (am guessing and hoping he just forget to bring his phone charger + lappy again) It worries me you know, not knowing if he is fine or not. Since he din even hang up my call, is more like no line uncontactable.

Sigh sigh....calm down kitteh. he be fine. He is a grown ass man, he'll take care of himself!!
>.< *mumble mumble*

(an hour interval)

OK back from lunch nao and i saw this:

So yeah, he's fine. *smacks ma mac* i worry + miss u a lot you know "OoQ"
Thank god you finally found a way to contact me.

LOLs of my workspace thoughhhh...WTH have i been doing here man... (continues to chat with ma mac)

Been doing fine with the zhuzhu lately as we got closer together. though we are not always together physically, i really enjoy the time i get to chat with her, care for her + she always belanja me FUUUUUDDDDDSSSS <3

Got to speak with Lute too, hearing her speak stories about her and her sister. It warms me and reminds me how i am with my zhuzhu. heheh.

OK back to work nao. can't procastinate too long! *floats off*