I'm not selfish, it's just that i believe in a fair trade.

These days, since i've been pretty much free at home doing artwork. There had been some form of request for me to do art. AND all these humans EXPECTING ME to do it for free. I'm not a selfish person, but first i have to say, i believe in a fair trade.

Let's see: YOU never invited me out anymore for at least 1 year or more (simply to say u totally forgot about me), never treated me anything, never chat with me, never have concern with my life, never even will call me for your wedding dinner etc etc. What in my position to do things for you for free?

Well, to you i may look selfish. But who's the selfish one? You let me do things for you for free, while i starve eating Instant noodles everyday, feeding on MSG, feeding on Coffee to boost my brains, travel out to get my EXPENSIVE art materials just for your work etc etc and i get nothing...NOT EVEN A SINGLE "THANKS" at least. OK, maybe just one thanks, then you disappear again from my life until u need something from me again. FREE.

So what if you don't have the "TALENT" to do something, it took me 16 years to perfect what (my artwork skills) i have now. I don't see why i have to starve and give you something. I just earned 2k from my boyfriend for work and now it's draining away for you humans. This is kinda like my breakin' point already, as you humans might have known. i am not that rich, and i already lost like 3kg in the last few months. I AM UNDERWEIGHT NOW, YOU FOOL AND U STILL WANNA MAKE ME STARVE?? DAMNED.

Even my BF pays me for my work, i don't see why u as my friends can't.

Friends from dA, Facebook and reality, understand my plight.

"But BEWARE of people trying to take advantage of you. Many people want things for free and this is too much to ask for sometimes. When you are starting out free is understandable, but eventually you will reach a point where your computer will break, your car needs gas, and your camera is expensive and you will realize free means you don't have any money to do it anymore. So once you get good start charging!"
(Quoted from Apri1)

It's because i feel that you're my friend that i do something for you, FOC. If you never treated me as one, have some humanity.

At least, gimme a meal.

Kitty rants about history...

Pretty much come and go, my love life churning and turning around and around. I tired, seriously given up on men. I'm no longer a man-hungry teenager, no longer have the need to survive for those who don't appreciate or respect me and my life.

I don't know what I'm saying now is actually right. There's always gray lines, so what i say may not be entirely true.

My ex-es have disrespected me or my life, you my readers had seen these in your eyes through my blog, through my life itself. I'm tired of crying, tired of dying and EXTREMELY TIRED of feeling guilty. I've lived my life trusting who i shouldn't trust and i need not it happening again. I have given so much in return to just cry in the dark, WHAT THE HELL?? It hurts me even more that they have no guilt for themselves and it totally URKS me to see them trying to make themselves the hero of their story. Even though they might or might not know it, they always have some scheme up in their hands to exert pressure and guilt on me. Making me the guilty party, the 'bad girl'. Each and every time, the breakup turned out to be something their peers will KILL me about. "She should die, she does not deserve you." I'm not blind ya' know? I still have eyes and stop making it public that I'm a slut. Maybe i should die. But i am sure, being the one that dumped them, they do not deserve me. It's like keeping a pet, if you don't have the heart to love and take care of it properly, DON'T. Sheesh.

I have the rights to love whomever i want and dump whoever that disrupts my life. Life's harsh, just take it in. If you still think you have no wrong, you shouldn't even talk to me right now. Though I might be at fault, I'm sure SOMETHING triggered it, ya know.

My current boyfriend loves me, respected me and even more encouraged me for everything i do. I do not feel the pressure of age, occupation nor education status. Though he couldn't speak English well, though he knows NIL about art. I find nothing to dislike him. He made me understand more about myself, understand there should not be such pressure upon our relationship. He makes me feel that i need to even more improve myself in whatever ways and it will not cause any pressure in our relationship, more aiding then failing actually. He's pretty much ok with my friends and thinks that Ah Muis is amusing <3.

I am happy.

I will even more happy if my past stop haunting me though, every time just wanting me to feel guilty that i have dumped a joke of my life. Stop talking about him, stop stalking my blogs and online networks if you don't want to get hurt, stop talking about me with MY PEERS and my dear friends, please just ignore them. THEY ARE NOT 100% correct ya know. I love you humans more than any men you know that and will gladly kick them aside so we can be together always.

Don't know what else to rant about...and oh!

Stop crying for lord's sake. It's not going to get my sympathy even if you die in front of me, being the cold-hearted self i am. Not even for Japan's recent disaster. Pfft.

Kitty's message to mah haters

Sexy Lacy Demon.

Lacy's kinda like my spirit of revenge to my haters *laugh*
I'm AN ARTIST. I'm not gonna swear or fight like a hooligan, this is what i do and what i like to do.

damned. <3

colored: http://lapin-de-fou.deviantart.com/art/Lacy-Demon-198538203

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This is a drawing, with a message to my haters.

I have nothing against you, you're probably a ranting idiot. I'm a bitch, and still have my stand that i am cute, sexy, smart and talented, while you're just a useless idiot who just wanna get angry at me while i am having fun trampling your ego with my sexy S-curve everywhere.

So, there... you go.
TASTE MY ALL LACED EVIL SEXIFIED PANSU YOU SISSY BIA-TCH!!! WOOTS!!

我没什么想跟讨厌我的人生气，反而，能让我侮辱你我可是觉得是游戏噢~

我还是看待自己是可爱美丽性感的天才，而对我来说生气的你可是一个只是给我娱乐的笨蛋。 玩玩你，撕烂你的自尊心可是我近来无聊时必须的娱乐，我只好用个性感S舞姿感谢你给我解闷。

所以，这是我画给你的。
舔舔我邪恶力量的蕾丝性感内裤吧！！

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You are a Cautious Visionary
about you: You are a Visionary

Your imagination, self-assuredness, and knowledge of the world combine to make you a VISIONARY.

You have clear notions of how things could be, and the confidence to try to make them that way.

You enjoy having a routine, and prefer comfort and familiarity to risk and adventure.

Not needing others' approval to forge ahead, you are confident in your designs for the future.

Your imagination allows you to envision the world as a better place.

You're better at thinking of the big picture than you are with details, and you can see wonder in abstract things.

Style and appearances are important to you, and you have a good eye for beauty.

You are somewhat rigid in your beliefs, which comes from both confidence and an aversion to change.

You are good at creating works of art in forms with which you're familiar.

Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts

You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.

You much prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute. Your decisions are well thought out, and you're not the least bit impulsive.

You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.

Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:

Appreciate the earthly, functional elements of things.

Your clarity of vision sometimes prevents you from being open to new ideas. Try expanding your horizon of experiences, and experimenting with novel ways of doing things.

how you relate to others

You are Cautious

Being independent, practical, and somewhat guarded with others makes you CAUTIOUS.

You tend to keep to yourself, wary of trusting others with personal information.

The values that you hold are central to your identity—you are a very principled person.

You have respect for the natural order of things, and a good sense of right and wrong.

Investigating the world through observation, as opposed to interaction, is preferable to you.

You have an appreciation for those who have attained a certain level of accomplishment, particularly the rare few who have succeeded honestly.

You are efficient—when you work with others, you get down to business, and fulfill your obligations.

You sometimes wish that others would be more like you—less hindered by their emotions, more respectful, and more private.

If you want to be different:

Finding a few close others whom you can trust will allow you to express yourself more openly, and possibly to learn more about yourself.

Your Personal DNA Maps (Above)

Here are personalDNA maps that uniquely represent your personality. Mouse over any part of the box or strip to learn more about the traits that the colors represent.

Your Personality Chart

»Glossary of Traits

This chart shows thirteen personality traits. Each bar indicates the percentage of test takers who entered a lower value for that trait than you did. For example, if Confidence is at 80, that means that 80% of people entered lower values for confidence questions than you did. Based on a sample of 30,000 users. Click here to learn more about the traits.

Confidence	Low High	68
Openness	Low High	2
Extroversion	Low High	16
Empathy	Low High	22
Trust in others	Low High	4
Agency	Low High	62
Masculinity	Low High	74
Femininity	Low High	94
Spontaneity	Low High	2
Attention to style	Low High	88
Authoritarianism	Low High	92
Earthy/Imaginative	Imaginative Earthy	64
Aesthetic/Functional	Functional Aesthetic	66