Can't sleep at night again, nocturnal kitty

"O_O" My dear 'Sandra Jie Jie' still of stalking me....i forgots...HAhahaaa

Thanks couz. I'm fine. Just maybe i prolly like lock here too long and misses peoples that's all.

*still hugging donkey*

I am missing leon a lot. spent my time thinking ang thinking about us. Like things we did, how we met, why we quarrel.

Things about when he scolds me, throw me in the streets, our first kiss, us watching the full moon at beach in the night, us quarreling, him noming my food and says my cooking fails, swimming and realise he can't swim, eating kaya toast together, me crying when i miss him, his voice, his interests, him calling me stupid mao, him trying to wake me up in my morning, me trying to help him cover blanket when i pull away the blanket when i sleep, i punch him when he tries to surprise me, him ignoring me to play games....

i sound so obsessed.

Prolly because i really miss him.

but this is how my nights have become. Heart beating fast as though I'm drunk, memories of him flooding me. Keep crying, stop crying, smiling, then crying again, and then eventually decide i should not lie down and on the lights and sit by my lappy to do something constructive other than crying and getting my tummy upset too.

I wonder. What else could i say that 'i love u dar' and *kisses* on msn and while sms-ing. I kinda got tired of words. Yet, i do not know what else i can tell him.

I miss the way he looks at me, fondles with my messy hair, the way he hugs and touches me to makes me feel fo safe and blissful, the way we hold hands and play with each other's palm with our fingers, the way we wrestle while trying to tickle each other or when i am trying to smack him.

hah~

I am wierds. We're together for like more than 2 years and i still act like that obsessed, that in love with him when as we first kissed.

I just couldn't stop.

It's such a whimsical thing, why i just can't fall out of love with this stupid boy whom i love a lot.