Is half a month past the hair disaster.

My hair growing longer and longer. i got to another saloon to have a trim and my hair looks so much better now as it grows out.

Sure my face looks as round as ever, but it's improving everyday. ribbon works well in covering anything eeky, i am kinda falling in love with clipping ribbons on my hair. I ish make chant spell everyday for hair to grow faster, i think it works.

Stretch it

twist it

make it grow

like a river 

let it flow

three times fast shall it hair grow

this is my will

so mote it be.

=)

Trying to make the best out of bad situation...

Since my hair is beyond repairable for now, i guess i just have to do something to make me feel good i guess? putting on makeup doesnt seem to make me look any better, so saddening, so eh....i just went to tie my hair in a way i think makes me look good.

I apologize for no makeup and my naturally dead looking face. So how does it look, u can see some black parts there, my hair's been growing out from the brown part i dyed around christmas 2012. Thus, why my hair gets rounder when it's shorter, since there's no long hair weight to pull the hair all straight down anymore.

i wonder how long it has grown though and how fast it will grow...it's not a lot i think, but i hope it will grow faster with all the treatments/massaging i've been doing to my head. u may think i bimbo la, worry so much about it. Have u heard dat hair is girl's life. it is important to me, splitends or not. hope i can get it to a length it so long by dec, dat after i rebond it, i'll never have to worry about it again. but i doubt la. probably need wait until next year to do the rebonding. So eh....have to wait and always tie my hair when i go out i guess.

So sad. ="<

Bad haircut days.

So i had a bad haircut at a saloon that turned my hip length hair into this:

  
i refuse to live with this. wat fashion?!! it looks so stupid.

So i got soooooo frustrated they turned my into this thick thing, telling me this is supposingly the now "in" thing. Do you think i care about that?? I WANT HAIR!! I told the freakin lady to trim my hair to get rid of the split ends and i intend for it to grow to knee length, not change my hairstyle with like 6 inches off! And so the haircut has also cut away my ego and confidence. (i was very proud of my long hair before i cut it though it has many spliends) So shit, what have been done is done, i am never going back to a saloon to get my hair cut ever again.

I had to fix my hairstyle back at home. at first under frustration, i kinda ruined it and i am force to fixed, so now it ended up something like this.

Well this is the best i can fixed it, as u can see it got shorter thus my hair is starting to bob up thanks to the shortness of it and i hate it. the side bangs have became too short. Mac said i look boyish now which make me even sadder. i hope my hair grows faster, i am trying out all hair growing techniques online to get my hair to grow faster, i hope i'll look back to normal by the end of the year to look like this again...



wish my luck man....eesh it looks like mushroom even then. but ehhh....anything better than it looks like now.
I shall try take photo like every 1-2 month to observe my hair growth....pray man....prayyyyy

Nervous...

Ish going to see my mamac soon in like 36 hours time. I feel so nervous, my heart's racing and i can't sleep. Thinking back the past few months hasn't been great for us is one factor why i'm getting so nervous, the other  reason is because i hate to come to him, them leaving like dat early in the morning again. that thought and memories of the last time at the airport had really really freaked me out. Now i have airport phobias. I scared to cry in public.

Mac house today no electricity, no internet. it has been days since i last heard his voice. So i'm kinda at the jittery panicky mode without him being by my side reassuring me. He should be sleeping now, i miss him a lot. well. just have to hold on a bit more then i can sleep in peace. I wanna tell him so much i wanna be with him and scared to leave him. ="< yeah it sounds stupid, being scared of airport just because i cried at the airports before. hate crying alone la!

just a bit more and i'll see him again. Hope it be great and loving this time!