So many things, so little time i have left now here before the lappy. Now packing up my stuff, with many heavy feelings and feels quite upset about this. But at least i have my phone with me, so i can still receive sms-ses. (Leon will be helping me top up so that i can still contact him in case i feels upset.)
Don't ask why i can't contact other ppls, is not like u guys are paying for my phone bills. =p <--stingy
-4 sets of clothing
-some random necessities for my hair and skin
-Medication
-1 empty blank notebook (which will serve as my diary and sketchbook)
-1 mechanical pencil
-1 small lead container
-1 eraser
-Leon's jacket and neoprints
-1 phone + charger
Still have somemore stuff to pack. Should i bring more misc stuff?
I stopped crying after crying for 2 hours plus until i got sick yesterday. Still upset though, but not crying anymore.
Seriously don't want to go somewhere where i don't know anyone and somewhere i dunno and may be in danger. (there was a gang rape case last year there and food poisoning case that killed some people the year before too.) <-- DANGER
Though i heard it's somewhere near my place.(I doubtingly think so)
Not really want speak of reason or anything like that, since this is not my decision or my choice. But I'm sure I'll miss everything here to the point i go bonkers and such. But I hope 3 months pass by fast, after that i will go school and meet u ppls and I wanna stay out for one night maybe. At a hotel/chalet. Just somewhere outside to spend time with u guys and of course my dearest Leon.
3 months, I'll be back a dark kitty (which i hope not *prays much* and packs in sunblock ). Anyways, I'll be gone in the afternoon 2moro and only be back in October 3rd/4th. So make sure to stab any idiots who hack my accounts.
Hmmm dunno what else to say. I'll update it before i leave i guess.
I'll miss you people lots. I love you and don't forget about me, or i seriously WILL be saddened. (Well I'll still be sadden to come back to fb and see how much I've missed out on life and my friends having fun take pic and such. ARGHhhh...)
But ya, I love u guys.
Hope i can still hear from u ppl before i leave and hiatus my Network and Social life.
PS: in case i dun come online on the 4th or even if u ask my leon he also no heard from me, prolly means I'm dead somewhere.
So i wanna tell u guys before i regret it: I love u all and i NEVER regretted walking my life and meeting everyone of u, good and bad. Thanks. I love you.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
两个人在一起久了，是会上瘾的～
两个人在一起久了，会发现自己有时幼稚的像个儿童。
两个人在一起久了，才知道原来一个人可以如此的去想念另一个人。
两个人在一起久了，自己的不良爱好会因为对方的不喜欢而终止。
两个人在一起久了，会比以前更加奋斗，把压力当成动力。
两个人在一起久了，奇怪的变的很乖，会按时吃饭按时睡觉。
两个人在一起久了，父母管不下来的习惯，会因为她的一声哼，而改正。
两个人在一起久了，会深深的喜欢上以前那份厌恶督促，催促，教训。
两个人在一起久了，脑子里会老记着去看看手机。即使是个山寨货。
两个人在一起久了，会常看一些生活小常识，星座相配，异性服装。
两个人在一起久了，偶尔就和发春状态一样说出我爱你。
两个人在一起久了，撒娇多了，冷言少了，（嗯） 字多了，（不）字少了。
两个人在一起久了，看见相拥，亲吻的场景，会用好浪漫去形容。
两个人在一起久了，人会变的很细心很敏感，嘴笨也学会甜言蜜语了。
两个人在一起久了，会在任何时间任何地点，为了一个可爱的幻想站着傻笑。
两个人在一起久了，常在琢磨是因为寂寞才想你还是想你才寂寞。
两个人在一起久了，漫不经心打听她小姐妹的情侣是否很出众，很乐意的给自己增加压力。
两个人在一起久了，即使搂在怀里了，也会为了自己一个虚有的幻想而担心失去，很不安心。
两个人在一起久了，平常游戏的时间是在专心的关注着对方的签名，日志，一切有关系的讯息。
两个人在一起久了，会很想陪伴着她去做她想做的事，即使是自己从没触碰过的。
两个人在一起久了，通常只是偷瞄走过的异性，然后惊慌失措的说句还是你最漂亮。
两个人在一起久了，兄弟，朋友的会常对自己说一句话。（重色轻友的家伙）
两个人在一起久了，虚伪说你真是个大坏蛋，内心不知道有多怜惜这个大坏蛋。
两个人在一起久了，是会上瘾的。
两个人在一起久了，才知道原来一个人可以如此的去想念另一个人。
两个人在一起久了，自己的不良爱好会因为对方的不喜欢而终止。
两个人在一起久了，会比以前更加奋斗，把压力当成动力。
两个人在一起久了，奇怪的变的很乖，会按时吃饭按时睡觉。
两个人在一起久了，父母管不下来的习惯，会因为她的一声哼，而改正。
两个人在一起久了，会深深的喜欢上以前那份厌恶督促，催促，教训。
两个人在一起久了，脑子里会老记着去看看手机。即使是个山寨货。
两个人在一起久了，会常看一些生活小常识，星座相配，异性服装。
两个人在一起久了，偶尔就和发春状态一样说出我爱你。
两个人在一起久了，撒娇多了，冷言少了，（嗯） 字多了，（不）字少了。
两个人在一起久了，看见相拥，亲吻的场景，会用好浪漫去形容。
两个人在一起久了，人会变的很细心很敏感，嘴笨也学会甜言蜜语了。
两个人在一起久了，会在任何时间任何地点，为了一个可爱的幻想站着傻笑。
两个人在一起久了，常在琢磨是因为寂寞才想你还是想你才寂寞。
两个人在一起久了，漫不经心打听她小姐妹的情侣是否很出众，很乐意的给自己增加压力。
两个人在一起久了，即使搂在怀里了，也会为了自己一个虚有的幻想而担心失去，很不安心。
两个人在一起久了，平常游戏的时间是在专心的关注着对方的签名，日志，一切有关系的讯息。
两个人在一起久了，会很想陪伴着她去做她想做的事，即使是自己从没触碰过的。
两个人在一起久了，通常只是偷瞄走过的异性，然后惊慌失措的说句还是你最漂亮。
两个人在一起久了，兄弟，朋友的会常对自己说一句话。（重色轻友的家伙）
两个人在一起久了，虚伪说你真是个大坏蛋，内心不知道有多怜惜这个大坏蛋。
两个人在一起久了，是会上瘾的。
Friday, May 28, 2010
Getting upset again...
Is it that my existance mainly appears for men to have an erection of? Can anyone tell, how to make friends with men without them thinking under the belt or thinking that I'm a transvestite??
This is so frustrating.
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS HAVE MY FRIENDSHIP SACRIFICED BECAUSE THIS GUY FRIEND OF MINE WANTS TO HAVE HIS HANDS IN MY PANTS??
Had my friendliness or gentleness been wrong the whole time? I don't even how, even by not touching or using any of those sexy words can get 'friends' telling me they want to make love with me!!
Tell me, guys.
What's going on in your brain now because i need to know it before i go bonkers and go ahead to hating normal guys too.
emo-ing and i broken soul i shall be. For now.
This is so frustrating.
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS HAVE MY FRIENDSHIP SACRIFICED BECAUSE THIS GUY FRIEND OF MINE WANTS TO HAVE HIS HANDS IN MY PANTS??
Had my friendliness or gentleness been wrong the whole time? I don't even how, even by not touching or using any of those sexy words can get 'friends' telling me they want to make love with me!!
Tell me, guys.
What's going on in your brain now because i need to know it before i go bonkers and go ahead to hating normal guys too.
emo-ing and i broken soul i shall be. For now.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Emotion in shreds...
もう疲れた...誰だもう信じられない。
最後の真は：私は本当の‘友達’がない。
...だろう？
この事は私もう知っている。でも何でいつもいつもこの‘友達’に探したいの事があきらめないか？何でこの‘友達’と言うのが欲しいか？この物は自分と言うに大切な物か？いつもあの人たちの事が泣く、本当にいいか？
今の私止めたいて、あきらめたいていいか？
きみなら、我々の友情ガ切るか？
できるか？
実、私最近はこの事もう二人がやりましたよ。私は後悔がないだから、絶対に‘ごめん’が言わないね！
^^
_(≧o≦)_
最後の真は：私は本当の‘友達’がない。
...だろう？
この事は私もう知っている。でも何でいつもいつもこの‘友達’に探したいの事があきらめないか？何でこの‘友達’と言うのが欲しいか？この物は自分と言うに大切な物か？いつもあの人たちの事が泣く、本当にいいか？
今の私止めたいて、あきらめたいていいか？
きみなら、我々の友情ガ切るか？
できるか？
実、私最近はこの事もう二人がやりましたよ。私は後悔がないだから、絶対に‘ごめん’が言わないね！
^^
_(≧o≦)_
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