While waiting for Lappy to recover itself, kitty rants...

I actually was donw with my portfolio stuff, until the lapppy crashed last night while i was finish on the name card. DAMNED!! And i made it look so nice somemore on the cover but it hanged before i could save it. STUPID COM. DIE AT THE WRONG TIME!! And one week after my harddrive died too. Well, good job. Now i have nothing to do but to wait and type blog n growl at fb comments.

This reminds me. I have like a month's worth on emails from horoscope sites telling me 'NOT TO TOUCH MACHINERIES, especially when it is red car'. My lappy is pink, i guess it's close enough? My harddrive broke, my handphone screen cracked, my room's tv got retarded. Ok and flikering lights....and my aircondition is dripping. Oh great. So i guess, if i meet up a red car i will be run over with? RAWRRRR!!

Maybe I'm not one with patience. Since my lappy had only been through this for like around one and a half hours? And i have been doing this since yesterday morning, though i keep restarting it like one hour after it loads. But today. I decided to wait. Hopefully it will load before noon so that i can do work, else i need go find lect to beg n prayy.

Kitty being in and out and BACK INTO DEEP WATERS AGAIN!!

I'm so tired, finally i am able to end my $800 debt and another shit cock up again. My harddrive busted and $200 plus flew away. And good, now i owe leon money and he refuses to pick up my call.

I've been crying so much that it seems it'll never stop. My heart hurts so much. i was finally looking forward to the day to be free and just a few hours later punched straight back into the soil. I'm so tired, I dunno how much more longer can i take this...Less than half a year, more than 1K gone. I CAN'T EVEN ENJOY MY CNY MONEY NOW!! I don't think i can even go out chalet with my friends at the end of the semester. I dunno If i'm being plain unlucky or what, i am so tired, SO VERY TIRED.

Half a month,
-1k plus gone
-Relationships got into jeopardy
-i at least lost 5kg UNHEALTHYLY, i bet u
-I have lost stuffs like 4 times (Only 2 times that i got it back)
-My Bed's stand Broke
-the injury on my toe got worse, now i have difficulty walking without feeling pain.
-My bunny bag broke
-One of my favorite Boots broke
...AND I F-ING SWEAR I DID NOT BREAK THE STUPID THING!! SO STOP SAYING I DID!!

I have lost so much, so much...
Time, fun, love, food, sleep....

What i have sacrificed myself of, I bet you'll never imagine the pain. It's not just about the money, I can tell u, i sacrificed a lot lot more than that. Every moment frustrated about how to clear my problems that no one can help me. (Or should i say, those who can refused to help me)

What can i do now, i am not sure. I'm too tired to struggle or help myself...

Kitty hates the humans on the high chair...

I've heard someone in the govt died today and we as citizens are forced to wear black sashes on our arm or we're deemed to be caught by the police as a means of disrespecting our whatever that he is. WTS, like he has done anything for me in the first place and BLAH, i don't even know the person. For someone who's so cocky to even make people respect him after he died, damned, you must be one desperate dude for attention.

Sitting on the high chair makes u sooooo blind. It's not about wearing the black sash, it's more on the way of 'WHY DO I HAVE TO RESPECT U ANYWAYS'?

It's obviously ur incompetent that my life is sucky anyways. HURR.

BLOODY M.FUCKER, BLOODY GOVT PPL.

New year's resolution 2o1o

Setting mah GOALS of 2o1o

1. Graduate from SIDM with honours (i will work hard on it)

2. Have success for fusion and hope i get into a good company that doesn't make me OT all the time. (i no want to sleep 1h everyday...it's of very tiring and stressful)

3. Have better improvement for depression problem. I do not wish to have another suicide attempt anytime soon. >o<

4. Take up modelling. (HURR...i wish...I'm short n fail)

5. Learn to save money properly. No more wasting money.

6. learn to make costume. (Anyone wants to lend/give me sewing machine?)

7. Learn to do impressionism...(OH LAWL)

8. I wish someone buy my art piece.... will it happen?

9. Clean my room before CNY. LOL, it's forever gets messy when i busy.

10. Final, lose more fats. Especially around my shoulder area.

XDDDDD

HAPPY 2o1o PEEPS!!