I seriously wonder since when i got emotional. I am finally realising that i am crying a whole lot easier lately.....well actually like since the past 2 years...
Especially when it concerns something about family. I was watching 'Mainichi Kaasan' when i realise i got teary.Mind u, the anime is a comedy about a family. COMEDY. And now that i realise....i don't wanna go for graduation day.
....
ok....
I don't see why i have the need to tear and cry as well.No one's gonna turn back and look at me. No one's gonna pity me.
Yet....i can't stop it either...
I miss Leon.
....i hate being alone here....
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Finally graduating from NYP mew~
AH~
It's been a short journey and i'm so going to miss my friends and people i met in NYP. T-T Waiting to get teh gradution notice letter from my aunt though, hope she faster give me. I still have many things to do.
Wondering if i ever will see my friends after this though. I is going to miss them a lot. >.< We should have chalet every year k?? then can go out and play, just the lot of us. AND TWISTER!! XDDD I had fun at the last chalet though, really enjoyed every moment together, even if things din turn out quite right the whole time.
Hope i could still get in touch with u ppls and leon especially during the random 3 months of MIA ness. Please dun think i dieded ok? I will call u guys after that to make sure i ok n still alive. Will not promise that i will not emo though...since i always does. But at least, i don't think i will kill myself. LOL
Prolly after that i might stay in the kach house, since they are willing to keep me. They should just make me god sister of kach or something, haha. I likes of the Kach family, friendly ppls.
Last thing: i realised i should blog more. LOL
It's been a short journey and i'm so going to miss my friends and people i met in NYP. T-T Waiting to get teh gradution notice letter from my aunt though, hope she faster give me. I still have many things to do.
Wondering if i ever will see my friends after this though. I is going to miss them a lot. >.< We should have chalet every year k?? then can go out and play, just the lot of us. AND TWISTER!! XDDD I had fun at the last chalet though, really enjoyed every moment together, even if things din turn out quite right the whole time.
Hope i could still get in touch with u ppls and leon especially during the random 3 months of MIA ness. Please dun think i dieded ok? I will call u guys after that to make sure i ok n still alive. Will not promise that i will not emo though...since i always does. But at least, i don't think i will kill myself. LOL
Prolly after that i might stay in the kach house, since they are willing to keep me. They should just make me god sister of kach or something, haha. I likes of the Kach family, friendly ppls.
Last thing: i realised i should blog more. LOL
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
While waiting for Lappy to recover itself, kitty rants...
I actually was donw with my portfolio stuff, until the lapppy crashed last night while i was finish on the name card. DAMNED!! And i made it look so nice somemore on the cover but it hanged before i could save it. STUPID COM. DIE AT THE WRONG TIME!! And one week after my harddrive died too. Well, good job. Now i have nothing to do but to wait and type blog n growl at fb comments.
This reminds me. I have like a month's worth on emails from horoscope sites telling me 'NOT TO TOUCH MACHINERIES, especially when it is red car'. My lappy is pink, i guess it's close enough? My harddrive broke, my handphone screen cracked, my room's tv got retarded. Ok and flikering lights....and my aircondition is dripping. Oh great. So i guess, if i meet up a red car i will be run over with? RAWRRRR!!
Maybe I'm not one with patience. Since my lappy had only been through this for like around one and a half hours? And i have been doing this since yesterday morning, though i keep restarting it like one hour after it loads. But today. I decided to wait. Hopefully it will load before noon so that i can do work, else i need go find lect to beg n prayy.
This reminds me. I have like a month's worth on emails from horoscope sites telling me 'NOT TO TOUCH MACHINERIES, especially when it is red car'. My lappy is pink, i guess it's close enough? My harddrive broke, my handphone screen cracked, my room's tv got retarded. Ok and flikering lights....and my aircondition is dripping. Oh great. So i guess, if i meet up a red car i will be run over with? RAWRRRR!!
Maybe I'm not one with patience. Since my lappy had only been through this for like around one and a half hours? And i have been doing this since yesterday morning, though i keep restarting it like one hour after it loads. But today. I decided to wait. Hopefully it will load before noon so that i can do work, else i need go find lect to beg n prayy.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Kitty being in and out and BACK INTO DEEP WATERS AGAIN!!
I'm so tired, finally i am able to end my $800 debt and another shit cock up again. My harddrive busted and $200 plus flew away. And good, now i owe leon money and he refuses to pick up my call.
I've been crying so much that it seems it'll never stop. My heart hurts so much. i was finally looking forward to the day to be free and just a few hours later punched straight back into the soil. I'm so tired, I dunno how much more longer can i take this...Less than half a year, more than 1K gone. I CAN'T EVEN ENJOY MY CNY MONEY NOW!! I don't think i can even go out chalet with my friends at the end of the semester. I dunno If i'm being plain unlucky or what, i am so tired, SO VERY TIRED.
Half a month,
-1k plus gone
-Relationships got into jeopardy
-i at least lost 5kg UNHEALTHYLY, i bet u
-I have lost stuffs like 4 times (Only 2 times that i got it back)
-My Bed's stand Broke
-the injury on my toe got worse, now i have difficulty walking without feeling pain.
-My bunny bag broke
-One of my favorite Boots broke
...AND I F-ING SWEAR I DID NOT BREAK THE STUPID THING!! SO STOP SAYING I DID!!
I have lost so much, so much...
Time, fun, love, food, sleep....
What i have sacrificed myself of, I bet you'll never imagine the pain. It's not just about the money, I can tell u, i sacrificed a lot lot more than that. Every moment frustrated about how to clear my problems that no one can help me. (Or should i say, those who can refused to help me)
What can i do now, i am not sure. I'm too tired to struggle or help myself...
I've been crying so much that it seems it'll never stop. My heart hurts so much. i was finally looking forward to the day to be free and just a few hours later punched straight back into the soil. I'm so tired, I dunno how much more longer can i take this...Less than half a year, more than 1K gone. I CAN'T EVEN ENJOY MY CNY MONEY NOW!! I don't think i can even go out chalet with my friends at the end of the semester. I dunno If i'm being plain unlucky or what, i am so tired, SO VERY TIRED.
Half a month,
-1k plus gone
-Relationships got into jeopardy
-i at least lost 5kg UNHEALTHYLY, i bet u
-I have lost stuffs like 4 times (Only 2 times that i got it back)
-My Bed's stand Broke
-the injury on my toe got worse, now i have difficulty walking without feeling pain.
-My bunny bag broke
-One of my favorite Boots broke
...AND I F-ING SWEAR I DID NOT BREAK THE STUPID THING!! SO STOP SAYING I DID!!
I have lost so much, so much...
Time, fun, love, food, sleep....
What i have sacrificed myself of, I bet you'll never imagine the pain. It's not just about the money, I can tell u, i sacrificed a lot lot more than that. Every moment frustrated about how to clear my problems that no one can help me. (Or should i say, those who can refused to help me)
What can i do now, i am not sure. I'm too tired to struggle or help myself...
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