Tuesday, October 27, 2009

KItty don't even deserves anything...

Depressed right now, because everything seems to be failing. My beloved dog's dying. Leon's sick, i think. Wei perng says I'm not suitable for leon and that i'm being insensitive to him.

I didn't hear a word from leon. But from what i seems, I'm the blamed party. It doesn't matter what i say because no one really listens and they don't care. It's even my fault that Leon hangs the phone on me when i cry it seems. So ya, I'm the evil party who terrorize people minds with my pain.

It's a pain no one ever accepts.

I can't even cry to my boyfriend or anyone in particular. I cause so much problem to him that i can't even gain a simple sense of acceptance. And guess what? The damned topic began by me saying that i 'wierdly feel no empathy for leon being sick'. And i was asked to repent, which clearly i cannot since i already don't feel anything.

Leon don't even care if wei perng's preaching me i guess. It just reminds me of JJ's friends saying i should die.

Hm...ya...maybe i should.

maybe...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Worthless kitty?

It's end of the 1st week of new school semester. All i can say it started well and boils my motivation to get As for all final Semester because I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE to someone who said that i did a good job because of pure luck.

tell me if i got this by 'pure luck'
(click to enlarge picture, it's a digital Matte Painting by the way, purely PSD)


It's very very much pissing me off when i see her work...like so much eekier using a block like brush?? U might say I'm mean or bad, trying to make her look bad whatever. Hey! If you're in my position when she says, "Wow, it's so pretty. You're pure lucky to have done this." I'm SOOOooooo sure you've slapped her. At what i do, is did like a fake laugh, just to make her happy.

WHAT THE HELL is wrong with this person, just trying to put people down. She's always like MAKE people look at her deviantart and when people critic, she's like give excuses, like she doesn't have time and such, ya right. And then she ALWAYS says that she can do better than me since i got it by 'PURE LUCK' and she never does it and go on ranting and ranting that i do things by pure luck....

YOU KNOW HOW BLOODY IRRITATING THAT IS? What makes she think i did less work than her or that i can just do things by pure luck? If I'm SOOOooOOooo lucky, I don't think i even want to attend school or meet her at all.

And then there was another girl, who happened to be enemies with my other 2 friends. Though i do not have grudges towards her at all. I didn't even try or did anything to piss her off. She was bad-mouthing about me. It's was something SO LAME, that no one in particular will rant about me.

SHE RANT ABOUT MY DAILY ATTIRE!!

she was like Why can't i dress normally, like As if I'm not and keep on saying that she's damned fashionable and such. I'M NOT EVEN LIKE WEARING SOME FEATHERING GAY SUIT, what makes her think that I'm wearing OUTRAGESLY <-- yes she did use that word.

She's not even like my mother or something. And to think that I'm being unaffected by her bad mouthing because she didn't say anything about me to me. (Well, of course she didn't, because that what's it's all about. Plus i heard it from a few people already...)

Seriously, why does people like to make others look bad?!!
It's like their hobby or something...

Other than that issue that I'm pissed off about, there's that the phone's not working so i can't call leon at all.

And then he promised me he'll be online when he reached back to Hentai's place like hmmm....4 hours ago? And i said i WILL wait for him to get online.

First, he didn't...it's ok...
Second, HE DIDN'T EVEN TAKE THE RESPONSIBILITY TO SMS ME THAT HE'S NOT GONNA BE ONLINE!!
(optiona but i can't even use it: THE BLOODY PHONE LINE IS CUT SO I CAN'T EVEN CALL TO HIM AND ASK HIM IF HE'S GONNA BE ONLINE OR WHATEVER)

Yes I'm pissed off that I'm made to wait like this? And well, if i rant to anyone, they'll just say I'M BEING STUPID ENOUGH TO BE UP FOR 4 HOURS TO WAIT FOR HIM! YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?? 5.52AM!! IT'S LIKE NEAR DAWN, I'M BLOODY TIRED AND ON THE VERGE OF FAINTING FROM HUNGER!!

OK I AM A FOOL.
A word keeping fool. I DON'T USE COMMON SENSE!! I'm stupid. That must be it, I'm so stupid to have to think that i want to keep my promise to someone important to me.

I'M NOT A BLOODY STONE YOU KNOW! I'm also a person. I do need to eat and sleep as well. DO NOT SURVIVE JUST BY PURE LUCK AND YES I DO GET ANGRY WHEN PEOPLE DO THINGS TO ME!!

i feel like crying...

Don't even know why am i still up and waiting.
Tried to off the lappy once and go to sleep. Which apparently i can't, since I'm too upset to take a wink.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Kitty's review: Who Framed Roger Rabbit?



Remember Roger Rabbit and his really hawt wife, Jessica Rabbit? And Maybe a bit of your Space Jam buddies? Hmmm, what about Mary Poppins?

Nostalgia, magical times of our childhood.
Our minds wanting to explore toon town.

It brings me back loads of memories. And i realised that cartoons nowadays could hardly give us that kind of impression. Nick toons is trying, good effort, but...it just doesn't have that realism that the old cartoons can give us. Giving now that I'm studying animation myself, i don't even have the confidence to pull off such amazing films!

But yet, I want to try it. I want to bring it all back, the magic and of course the favorite, subliminal masking. LOLs.

Any takers?

Sunday, October 11, 2009